July 20, 2001

I put a call into Dr. K on Tuesday regarding Darby. She's basically doing everything she has done before the injury. She is still suffering some muscle fatigue in that leg, but he says its normal and it will come back as she gets back to her normal routine.

happy dogThis means she can start SLOWLY back to doing agility if we want, or even retrieving on land. He doesn't need to hear from us unless we run into a problem.

I'm in tears. This last 6 months has been a long haul. I wasn't sure we'd ever get here. Looking over my previous entries into the diary, I relive the fear and frustration.

I'm afraid too. Afraid that she'll re-injure herself and I'll have to go through this all again. What do I do? Restrict her because I'm afraid or trust the dog to know. I'm not sure Darby would want to live a sedentary life. I guess I need to let go a bit and let her live her life as she wants to. Within reason of course.

Oh Lord, I am thankful for this day. That Darby has healed enough to be released. I also pray for your guidance in allowing her the freedom that comes with this. I never could have gotten through these past 6 months without your support. Thank you oh Father.

I guess this is the last of the Darby Diary entries. I want to thank everyone who has been through this ordeal with us. I want to thank everyone who has taken the time to read this diary. I thank you all for your well wishes you have sent to us and those who have been there when I needed to vent. I hope this diary has informed and educated you, as this was the intent. God bless you and yours as God as blessed us.

In parting, let me share the lyrics to the song which plays here now and plays on Darby's page. Its called "Angels" and its by Robbie Williams. Throughout this ordeal I've always felt watched over by God and a guardian angel. This song kinda sums up my feelings.

Angels

I sit and wait
Does an angel contemplate my fate
And do they know
The places where we go
When we're grey and old
'cos I've been told
That salvation lets their wings unfold
So when I'm lying in my bed
Thoughts running through my head
And I feel that love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

When I'm feeling weak
And my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
And I know I'll always be blessed with love
And as the feeling grows
She breathes flesh to my bones
And when love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the water fall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

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